2004-01-04 - 7:10 a.m.

there is a half filled cherry coke on the floor next to the couch and i dont want to dump it out becuase maybe he will want to finish it.

how is it possible that the one person who brought pure joy to my life is the same person who brings such heartache. but the funny thing is i would take him back in a second if he would let me.

they say everything happens for a reason. they say there is a plan. well what about my plan? do i have any say in this because this isnt how i was planning it.