2003-04-29 - 4:29 p.m.

i was going to write what i didnt say on the phone. i was going to write how i think you are inconsiderate. i was going to write that you made me cry and how i hate crying.

i was going to write that im not available to see you on your birthday. i was going to tell you i was going someplace with my friends. i was going to write how angry i was.

but that would be lieing.

i understand this is your last time with your friends as a group. i understand why you want to go.

i understand. i understand. i understand.

i am going to keep telling myself i understand.