2003-05-01 - 9:32 a.m.

ive always hated erics ex girlfriend. despised her. i even told eric he couldnt talk to her anymore. i would have dreams about her taking eric away from me, and the whole nine yards.

yeah...just a little nuts...

last night, eric and i went to the ataris, further seems forever, and the juliana theory show in worcester. when i was getting ready before the show, i had this feeling that tonight i was going to meet nicole. so i put on a little more makeup and we headed out. and i didnt think of it again.

we were not there twenty minutes when she came to say hi to eric. my gut tied up into little knots and i put on a fake smile that seemed to work. with the whole ninety seconds of standing three feet away from the person ive hated for the last fourteen months...i realized it wasnt that bad. all those feelings melted away and i kept thinking she must feel more akward than i.

so the show went on, and lots of slimy people squished up against me, elbows were flung into my boobs, and it was great!