2004-04-03 - 12:22 p.m.

its three months and counting and i feel no different from the day he walked away. i can lie to myself and say i am better off. but why kid myself?

and every week there is a reminder of how things used to be. every week we hang out and flirt and touch. and i know it isnt the right thing, and most likely the reason i still feel this way. but i dont want to stop. wednesdays are the only day during the week that i feel better. i count the weeks with wednesdays.