2004-01-05 - 6:17 p.m.

just turn around your car and come back.

i watched him leave again. he says give him time, is that a good thing? does that mean we are going to get back together. please someone makes sense of this. he said he isnt taking all of his things right now. i can see it in his eyes, he wants to stay. but why won't he?

why?

i have never hurt this much in my life. i cant eat food, the last time i ate was saturday night, eric and i had chicken.

please pray for us. i am not the biggest believer in god, but maybe he will listen to you.