2003-10-06 - 9:44 a.m.

if i could i would trace the outline of your body with my eyes and cut you from the situation you are in right now. i'd paste you on top of a comfortable bed with a bag of cool ranch doritos and the mystery science theatre three thousand dvd boxed set playing on the tube, so you wouldnt have to go through any of this.

you wouldnt have to worry about a better job because im pestering you. you wouldnt have to worry about one of your favorite people leaving your life permantently. you wouldnt have to be concerned about her all alone at home and how she is coping.

you just wouldnt.

and that would be grand and fantastic.

there are a few people i'd like to use my new imaginary cut-and-paste super powers on.

and you are another one. i hate feeling like we have run our course in life. you are less than a hundred miles away, but life was easier when you were a hundred miles closer. i'd like to take you and bring you to our best time in naples. the feeling that we were all alone, and actually acomplished something. the feeling of flirting with that silly bartender we promised to meet at an irish pub. taking pictures and watching the lightning over the ocean. how easy it is to forget the wonderful things in life when you have countless papers to write and mid-terms to study for.

and there is more, but my super powers could only fix so much.