2002-12-08 - 2:39 a.m.

i felt so guilty not updating yesterday. but it was quite the night. i am not sure what happened. i woke up on the floor a little after midnight with a small cut on my forehead. odd...yes.

today we lounged around and went and ate out. i had a horrible cheeseburger and eric had steak...mmm..

we put up the second christmas tree tonight. it looks nice. eric put up our ornament...KODAK moment...hehe

i think i am drowning myself in christmas decorations. i dont know why i do it. it is easier to do, then face the fact that christmas isnt going to be great this year. i thought it would be nice just to spend the day with stevie but he is going to maine. so now i will be all alone on christmas, but i cant complain...i do it to myself. i just dont want to go anywhere else. i just want to be alone. at least i wont be pretending to be happy someplace else.

have a good one.

later.