2002-12-01 - 8:45 p.m.

this weekend has been more than busy.

i just went and spent a whole lotta money i dont have on eric for christmas. i like buying him things. and we didnt set a price limit-but if we did, i am sure what i spent was over it. hehe

but you know what? everyone has all their christmas decor up and about, as do i. but it is like all this hype for what? it is like this big *insert the right word here bc i cant think of it* and then christmas comes and you are like 'thats it'? the climax is a let down and you are left with a feeling of being robbed. then for some reason 300 + days later you forget and you start it all over. i trick myself into believing it is such a great day...but it isnt. sure i like giving gifts and getting of course, but it seems like it is all forced. it is like you are supposed to buy your friends and family gifts because it is proper etiquette. and it isnt like you can protest it bc then you look like the idiot. so in the end you are a victim of the retail industry buying gifts you know are going to be 50% off a week after christmas. goddamnit!

have a good one.

later.