2003-02-09 - 5:01 p.m.

i bite on my tongue ring unknowing. i look around at my walls seeing past the white on white paint and the unfamiliar pictures. i can hear my chores that i just dont want to get around to doing.

i stopped showing that i cared. i stopped letting people know. i shall fight the battle within these skinned perimeters, and bake cupcakes with these nimble hands.

im okay, im fine, i dont have a problem. yeah. that is what i say mechanically, when all i want to do is scream out in agony at the world i live in. i want to yell at responsibilities. i want to kick the rules, and strangle normal human behavior.

but i have tried and failed, so i am going to go stir the batter until it thickens, and place on bake for 15-20 minutes or until golden brown.

have a good one.

later.