2003-02-05 - 9:25 a.m.

my elbows hurt, and i feel like i wasted another night. eric came home, i was trying to see out of one eye half open and licking my dry lips before he walked into the room. my reactions were a little delayed, it didnt work out for me. but anyways, he got me a harmonica. its so shiny. i shall play with it tonight. but everything inside me told me to open my eyes a little more and show a half ounce more gratitude, but i layed paralized. i layed there, he kissed my forehead and turned off the light. when i finally got up enough umph to bright eye myself and sit up from the supine position, eric had already went downstairs to watch tv.

wasted energy.